Thursday, 2 May 2013

Decision


            For the first time in my 18 year-old life, I know what I want. I know where I want to be and what I want to be. The decision is all mine and nothing others said could alter that. I really know what kind of journey I wanted to embark on and the path that I wanted to go through in order to achieve my goals and dreams. There is no doubt, I want this.

            March 21st, 2013, I received my SPM results(the equivalent of GCE O-Level), and got straight A’s, 10A+ and 1A-…an almost perfect record which made me feel grateful and regretful at the same time. Grateful because, obviously, that’s a very amazing achievement, being the top 4 in school. And regretful because only one subject is standing on my way from being called the best of the country, the top scholars. Anyhow, I thank Allah for blessing me with this amazing gift and to be able to make my parents proud.

            All seems well to me and to others until it was time to decide which university to go. Obviously, my parents and I want me to go overseas however there seem to be a slight contradiction regarding what should I take, the courses I mean, in university. My father at first insisted that I became a doctor regardless of how many times I made it clear that medicine is the last thing on the list. In fact, I am not even considering it. Then, few “battles” ensued between us and I stick to my choice, regardless of his approval. He then gave in but not without condition. This “war” is far from over.

            So, with good results, come good offers, and by offers I mean scholarships. I went for a few interviews for the scholarships and in my opinion I perform quite well. To me, they’re just mediums for me to gain experience and accustom myself with the process. I have no intention to accept them since my eyes are set on KYUEM, Kolej Yayasan UEM. I’ve checked it out and the programs and past achievements are really amazing and impressive. On top of that, I think that’s the only college in my country that has Model United Nations as a club activity. I am super excited. However, my father thinks that I should take the scholarship. Which lead me into a teary fury. I am pissed! I want to make my own decision. I am not taking blatant risk, I am taking a calculated one, having 3 backup plans and 1 backup plan for my backup plans.

            Fortunately, things have calmed down a bit and my mother assures me that he’ll accept it eventually. Right now, I am just hoping that KY will send me an offer letter. Gonna give them a call and ask about my application a bit and when will the offer letters will be sent to the successful applicants. Fingers crossed XD

p/s: regardless of the things that has happened, I know they just want the best for me. It’s just that I have my own way of doing things.


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