For
the first time in my 18 year-old life, I know what I want. I know where I want
to be and what I want to be. The decision is all mine and nothing others said
could alter that. I really know what kind of journey I wanted to embark on and
the path that I wanted to go through in order to achieve my goals and dreams.
There is no doubt, I want this.
March
21st, 2013, I received my SPM results(the equivalent of GCE
O-Level), and got straight A’s, 10A+ and 1A-…an almost perfect record which
made me feel grateful and regretful at the same time. Grateful because,
obviously, that’s a very amazing achievement, being the top 4 in school. And
regretful because only one subject is standing on my way from being called the
best of the country, the top scholars. Anyhow, I thank Allah for blessing me
with this amazing gift and to be able to make my parents proud.
All
seems well to me and to others until it was time to decide which university to
go. Obviously, my parents and I want me to go overseas however there seem to be
a slight contradiction regarding what should I take, the courses I mean, in
university. My father at first insisted that I became a doctor regardless of
how many times I made it clear that medicine is the last thing on the list. In
fact, I am not even considering it. Then, few “battles” ensued between us and I
stick to my choice, regardless of his approval. He then gave in but not without
condition. This “war” is far from over.
So,
with good results, come good offers, and by offers I mean scholarships. I went
for a few interviews for the scholarships and in my opinion I perform quite
well. To me, they’re just mediums for me to gain experience and accustom myself
with the process. I have no intention to accept them since my eyes are set on
KYUEM, Kolej Yayasan UEM. I’ve checked it out and the programs and past
achievements are really amazing and impressive. On top of that, I think that’s
the only college in my country that has Model United Nations as a club
activity. I am super excited. However, my father thinks that I should take the
scholarship. Which lead me into a teary fury. I am pissed! I want to make my
own decision. I am not taking blatant risk, I am taking a calculated one,
having 3 backup plans and 1 backup plan for my backup plans.
Fortunately,
things have calmed down a bit and my mother assures me that he’ll accept it
eventually. Right now, I am just hoping that KY will send me an offer letter.
Gonna give them a call and ask about my application a bit and when will the
offer letters will be sent to the successful applicants. Fingers crossed XD
p/s: regardless of the things that has
happened, I know they just want the best for me. It’s just that I have my own
way of doing things.
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