What A Year : Identity

    It's already December and the year is coming to and end. A lot has happened since January and this year has been a very life-changing journey for me. I have known friendship, hardship and yes, even love. The cold-hearted, heartless and stubborn Nadyaa had fallen for a guy and he's not even my type. How silly. So much have changed over the course of a year and I am just getting started. I grew up, I really did and this whole thing made me a more mature person (I think so).

    I initially thought that the first 7 month of the year that is responsible in moulding my identity. Boy I was wrong. The first 7 months did bring a lot of change but it was not the deal-breaker. It was the college that made me discover my true self, and for that I am grateful.

    I learned so many things in college and since there's no one to dictate what I can and can't do, I have the freedom of moulding my own character and to do the things that I love. How fun is that!! I feel so liberated and liberty is not something that I am used to. I started to realized how restrictive life has been and now, it's my time to shine and there's no stopping me. Liberty is a gift that I cherish too much and I will not give it away.

(Photo by Marinshe)

 

KYUEM, here I come!!!

      The title itself tells the story. Yup, after 7 months at home, I'm finally going to college. Mom and dad decided to drop me off personally to college. After almost a months packing (yes, I know, I'm a slow-packer), everything is ready, I guess so. Hahahah. This is a short update I guess, dont have much to say right now. Fingers crossed and hopefully I'll have a smooth sailing start at college. InshaAllah. xoxo

p/s: We're going by car tomorrow and the registration day is the day after that..sooo excited!!!

Labels

         Labels. You see them on your food, your beauty products, tooth brush and even on blogs online. You see them everywhere. It is easy to recognize and look for the things you want when you have labels isn’t it? One would expect it is easy to put labels on things. You just need to look at them and figure out which label to put. Like putting “Vegetarian” label on food that is for vegetarians and “Kosher/Halal” on food that complies with the religious dietary rules. Simple right? Well, unfortunately not in my case.

            I used to be a commitment freak and now I am not even sure about that label. I went through a transformation that changed me from a commitment freak to a clingy label-hungry type of girl. I wanted to put a label on what I am with him. I recently met a guy and he’s amazing. He makes me feel special and appreciated. Never in my life has a guy makes me feel so wanted (in a good way) and adored. The way he looks at me, the way he speaks to me, everything makes me melts. And I have a very strong resistance towards “melting” yet he manages to pull it off. What a guy!

            The issue now is, we keep flirting but none of us has put a label on what “this” is. Are we a couple? Is he my boyfriend? Am I his girlfriend? It’s just confusing and very stressful to me. I am torn between putting a label to this relationship or just playing along with the courtship. *sigh*

Asia Pacific Red Cross Youth Gathering 2012

       Remember when I mentioned the camping trip to Thailand? well, here are the pictures that I took...Good times...

 

 

 

 

 

 
 

 

 

 
      

 

Me with one the best friends on camp

cultural performance for  Queen Sirikit's birthday

A really cute 13 year old from Chiang Mai

Friends from camp 8

Art-sy project

Closing ceremony

 p/s: There are lots more pictures on facebook but uploading all of them kinda takes a while...anyways, enjoy them :)

Red Letter Day...and college.

      I finally passed my driving test and will have my license by Monday/Tuesday! So happy right now considering the fact that I failed on last time. Fuuuh!!! I felt as if a burden has been lifted off my shoulders. One thing done, thousands more to go. Yup, lots of work ahead of me, especially regarding my college choice. Let us talk about that shall we?

      So, I think I've mentioned about my little dilemma in choosing between KTJ and KYUEM right? Well, despite being slightly more expensive(waayyyyyy more), KTJ does offer a scholarship which anyone can apply, ranging from 10-100% tuition fee waiver. That lights me up a bit considering the amount of money that shall be spent on my education. However, I'm still slightly hesitant. But there's no harm in trying right? If I get it, then I'll re-evaluate the situation and if I dont, then, KY will be there.

     There's not much I can say in this post. Slightly bland and empty kind of post. But I just need to let it all out. Till next time.

New Player in the Game

       New player? And what game? Those two words are the analogy for my journey into enrolling to a college. And by new player I meant a new factor has emerged in this whole web of complications involved in my decision making of where to go to college. I know that I told you that nothing could change my decision of going to KY but this "player" has serious potential to alter my decision and change the whole course of the "game". And that "new player" is Kolej Tunku Ja'afar (KTJ).

       So, I was checking out some stuff on Google and suddenly I googled the college just to make some comparison with KY. There's no harm in that right? WRONG! I stumble upon an article written by one of its students and discovered that among the Clubs that they have there is MUN, Model United Nations. I suddenly got excited since KTJ has the name, the prestige, the uniform (yes, I love them) and the club that I want to join. So it's perfect right? Hmmm, not quite the case.

       Since the article didn't mention how much the fees are, I decided to ask one of my friends (Suah Jing Lian), and the answer I got surprised me. RM 150K (my currency)!!! I was like, whoa. That's about more than 2 times the price of KY and my bursary (a pre-university scholarship for those who achieved 9A+ and above) won't cover that. Nevertheless, I calmed myself down and decided to send an email to the Ministry of Education to appeal on using my bursary on either KTJ or KYUEM. Long shot but you'll never know. Fingers crossed.

       Also, I gave a call to the KYUEM people, asking about my application and they said the offer letter will be sent to successful applicants after 21st of May. And on that same date of latter, I could give them another call asking about the status of my application. Fuhhh.